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The start of time, between lovers

June 25, 2015  ·  Category: Authenticity, Feelings, Love, Personal

I've noticed sometimes that the beginning of a relationship is the start of time between lovers. The start of the present being anchored in an imagined future, rather than in what is alive and real. The shift feels subtle, significant, subversive. A woman recently told me her husband got cancer during their first year together. So, she says, she never took him for granted. That was 27 years, and two children, ago. In my own experience, even planning together to end a relationship, but not ending it just yet, puts time back on hold again. Unconditional love resurfaces. Have you noticed something similar? ...

“You make people wrong”

June 13, 2015  ·  Category: Authenticity, Circling, Community, Feelings, Individualism, Personal

I was told this in soft exasperation, earlier this week, by one of the most loving souls I’ve ever met, Sara Ness. In context, it made perfect sense. Today it makes me think of my stern, repressed stepfather and how hard I tried, as a boy, not to be wrong to him. It makes me think of cliquish classmates in junior high school, and how hard I tried to anticipate what they would dislike. It makes me think of how much love I have inside, of the challenge of getting that out fully, into the world. And how useful it is to live and ...

Who has loved

September 28, 2014  ·  Category: Individualism, Integral, Intellectual, Mindfulness, Personal

Who has loved with the ultimate depth, and actively given the object of your love back to the universe? Who has experienced that, through this gift, you transcend a broken heart? Who has found this path to having an unguarded heart? That you can fly without wings, fall without landing, hurt without closing, love without losing? To you, your love is my love. Our love is great love.

A personal statement on Ayn Rand

January 4, 2014  ·  Category: Atlasphere, Individualism, Intellectual, Objectivism, Personal

The topic of Ayn Rand's personal life, how it could have affected her philosophy, and whether her overall philosophy is truly valid, has come up regularly lately on my Facebook timeline. And for good reason. Many who go through a phase of identifying closely with Ayn Rand's philosophy later come to disavow the term "Objectivist." Often one factor in their decision is simply that they can't stand the moralistic-antagonistic antics of those in the orthodox branch of the Objectivist movement, even though they still agree with the basics of Rand's philosophy. Others stop calling themselves "Objectivist" for more substantive reasons. Some of ...

Pointing to the reality

I wrote this in answer to a friend, a relative newcomer to Ayn Rand's philosophy, who inquired about my interest in spirituality and why I would say something like "The divine is all around us." Why use the same words that religions use? I just got back from a 20-minute nap in the sunshine in the grass, in the park down the street. On my way to my favorite patch of grass on the embankment, I was approached by a young black missionary named Marcelle who was carrying a bible and was eager to talk. Sweet kid, seemed lonely, and was ...

Being inspired by your child

September 12, 2011  ·  Category: Parenting, Personal

This post inspired me, in turn, on multiple levels: what children are capable of, what parents are capable of, and how valuable it is to treat one another as (basically) responsible adults. I'd heard people talk about being inspired by their kids before, and didn't really believe it as I hadn't had the experience. But last night, Tovar inspired me. I'd been exploring issues of autonomy and self-regulation with Shannon, as well as how we can be better parents, so that was my mental frame as I went in to cuddle him last night. As often happens when we go in after ...

Integration with Disqus and Facebook

December 13, 2010  ·  Category: Personal, Web Development

I've implemented the Disqus commenting system here, and imported my old Mudita Journal comments to the new system. It looks like not all the comments got imported successfully but I may not have have time to investigate why. (Sorry about your two recent comments, Svein! Feel free to re-post.) I've also tried to install integration with Facebook, so that any new posts get published to my Facebook wall by default. Will find out shortly whether that is working correctly... The new Disqus commenting system offers quite a few advantages, including threaded comments (so you can reply to an individual comment), the ability ...

Welcome to the new design for Mudita Journal

December 13, 2010  ·  Category: Personal, Web Development

With my recent work on The Atlasphere, the Atlas Shrugged Movie site, and other projects, I realized yesterday it was time to bite the bullet and give Mudita Journal an updated design as well. It was looking pretty dated in recent years. My most recent overhaul was in 2006. I've been posting less here during the past year since my divorce — as one friend noted, divorce has a way of forcing you to go inside for a while — but I'm feeling the urge to dust things off and start posting more often again. I've also been using Facebook a ...

Dietary research: Good calories, bad calories

January 10, 2010  ·  Category: Health, Personal

My friend Thomas Ryan Stone has posted an interesting article on his site about the dietary research he and his wife conducted this past year, the low-carb lifestyle they adopted as a result, and the changes they noticed because of it. I was particularly intrigued by this summary of the ten key conclusions in Gary Taubes's book Good Calories, Bad Calories. Based on other information I've gleaned over the years, and what I've observed in my own dietary changes, I'm inclined to agree with these. 1. Dietary fat, whether saturated or not, is not a cause of obesity, heart disease, or any ...

The Invitation

by Oriah It doesn’t interest me what you do for a living. I want to know what you ache for and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart’s longing. It doesn’t interest me how old you are. I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool for love, for your dream, for the adventure of being alive. It doesn’t interest me what planets are squaring your moon... I want to know if you have touched the centre of your own sorrow, if you have been opened by life’s betrayals, or have become shrivelled and closed from fear ...